Katie's prayer: Salvador's "As the Deer"

As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul thirsts after Thee

Today was the first real day that I felt the temptation to watch tv (I gave it up for Lent). Before today, I’ve been busy, out of my apartment, multiple other things to do. But today, I was home all day. Every single time I sat down on that couch, I felt the urge to turn on the tv. As I was fixing my dinner, I was thinking of the shows that would be on at that time that I would be missing. After dinner, I had the thought - “Well I might as well go to bed now, there’s nothing to do without the tv.”

It wasn’t until I really started praying tonight’s song that I realized how stupid it all was. It’s a tv! My soul should be thirsting after God - not a stupid tv! I looked up the word “panteth” - apparently a version of the word “pant.” When I looked that up, this stuck out to me “breathe with short, quick breaths, typically from exertion or excitement. To long for.” Excitement! I should be excited to talk to God! But today, I realized that’s not true. My excitement, my longing was for the tv. And it wasn’t until dinner time that I thought about offering it up, and giving that to God.

All in all, I’d say I did the right thing by giving up tv for Lent. My attachment to it has become a little too much. It has obviously taken some time away from me and God. Tonight my prayer is that I remember this. I remember so the next time I feel the need for tv, I offer it up, I go and talk to God, that I don’t pull my computer closer and look at facebook for hours on end.