Katie's prayer: David Crowder Band's "Foreverandever Etc."

Maybe like a match being lit
Or the sinking of a ship, letting go gives a better grip
I'm finding everything I'll ever need
By giving up gaining everything

Part of this song is my ringtone for when I receive texts. Through echo prayer manager (check it out!) I receive at least 2 texts a day. And cause I’m so popular, and teens main mode of conversation is texts, I usually receive much more than that. You’d think that hearing this song so often, I’d be better at praying this song. If so, you’d be wrong. I don’t think I’ve EVER prayed this song! EVER! But after tonight’s prayer, I think I should start praying it more.

This song, along with a blog post I read earlier today, and along with the homily I heard at Mass tonight, get to the heart of my problem in my prayer life. I like to hold on to things. I like try and see exactly what it is I need to do to make God make things go MY way. Instead of trying to figure out what GOD wants for my life and doing that (which is how it should be). I mean, I try. I can’t say I don’t try, cause I do. But at the end of the day, I realize all these moments when I prayed, “Please God, just make this person do this...” I realize those moments when I just acted on what I wanted instead of praying about it first. I guess I just need to try harder.