Megan's prayer: Jars of Clay's "Five Candles (You Were There)"

I would jump if I knew you'd catch me.

I remember in sixth grade going to camp with my class. On the first day, my small group participated in a team building obstacle course. The final task was the trust fall. Although I had gone to school with all of these people for the past 6 years, I was in a group with other kids I didn't know all that well. Being the shy and very awkward/self-conscious girl, I really didn't want to do the trust fall. I didn't want to have to rely on these people I didn't know to catch me from falling.

My camp counselor made me do it. She made everyone participate. Somehow, I ended up going first. As I stood on the ledge, I was scared out of my mind. As I fell back, to my surprise, I landed in a sea of arms of my classmates - unharmed. They had caught me. I instantly felt closer to them all. I instantly trusted them all. I even did the trust fall again.

Why is it that I have such a hard time trusting God sometimes? I know him much better than I did my classmates on the trust fall. He's been watching out for me for the past 21 years. He has always been there to catch me when I fall.

Why is it that even though he has caught me so many times previously, that I can't jump confidently, 100%, into my faith?