Katie's prayer: MercyMe's "Here am I"

Here am I, send me

This has not been a good week. You know those everyday little decisions we all have to make. Should I do this or that? Start eating dinner now or wait a half hour? Continue working or stop for today? Go to that event or not? Stupid little decisions that really make no difference in our lives, right?

Well this past week, more than once, when having to make one of those decisions, I’ve felt like I was being pulled into one direction. I began to rationalize in my head why the way I was going (opposite of the way I was being pulled) was the correct decision. Even trying to explain to myself that some of those decisions, while it didn’t appear it at first, was really what God was calling me to do. Looking back, I’m amazed I was able to convince myself. Some of the decisions I made were so obvious it was not God’s will that it’s ridiculous! And the worst part of it all is that as the week has gone on, it’s gotten worse and worse. Just one stupid decision on Monday turned into a whole day of stupid decisions today.

And now I feel so far away from God that even if God were calling me to go out, I don’t think I’d be able to hear Him. I hate that feeling. I don’t even know how I let it get this bad. Tomorrow is a new day. Time to make some better decisions. Time to get close enough to God that I can truly say “Here am I, send me.”