It's hard to contemplate letting go and reaching out in trust
I love to be in control of my life. I like to know what is going to happen and how it is going to happen. While I want to be able to "let go," and sometimes I am able to, I still feel like I have control over that situation. It was my decision to let go and trust God.
Currently I'm struggling with not having control in certain aspects of my life, and it scares me. One of the things most often in my mind is wondering when I will find out where I'll be student teaching in the spring. Other SLU students have found out, but I'm still waiting to hear back. What kills me is that there is nothing I can do to speed up this process. It is completely out of my hands, and yet I haven't been able to accept that. I know that I will get a placement, and I know that the placement will be perfect for me, but I'm still having a hard time completely giving up and letting God take this one and trusting in him. I think that once I am able to do this, I will be at peace.
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