Katie's prayer: Jars of Clay's "The Eleventh Hour"

I won't give up on giving you

the chance to blow my mind

I feel like I go through this circle in my life of wanting to be in control of everything, to determining that job is God's, to trying to give it up, to giving it up, to ripping it back and wanting to be in control of everything again. The problem with determining exactly how my life goes and demanding God follow my schedule is that it doesn't leave room for God to come in and blow my mind. Doesn't leave room for surprises. And I sure do like surprises. (: Right now I'm right past the realizing God's the one that needs to be in control, not me. Trying, really trying, to give that control back to Him. But it's not all that easy. Never is. I wonder if I'll ever get out of this circle.