Well I’ve questioned my friendshipsAlliance, dependenceWho will still be here when I fall?But the one thing I don’t question is YouYou really love me like you say you doYea the one thing I don’t question is YouYou really love me like you say you do
There have been a few people in my past that I called "friends" that when it came down to it became anything but. In 8th grade, a friend who suddenly decided it would be more fun to make fun of me behind my back than be friends with me. Junior year of college, a friend who also suddenly decided it would be more fun to make fun of me behind my back. And after she hurt me by that, decided it would be even more fun to pretend to be my friend again and lie about having terminal brain cancer. Senior year of college, a friend decided she would spill the secrets I told her to the rest of our friends.
And that's really only a portion of the people who have seriously hurt me. Because of this scarred past, I sometimes find it hard to grow closer to people and actually trust them. Because all the people I have opened up to and completely let my guard down are the same people listed above. And for a long time, it was hard for me to grow closer to God and actually trust Him because of my past experiences.
But I feel like my "lesson" for the past year or so is learning that God is quite different from humans. And I mean, if you think about it, it sounds kinda stupid. "I'm not going to tell God everything cause I'm afraid He'll spill my secret to someone else" really?! (: God isn't like that. But still, as much as I've been working on that part of my life, and as much as it makes more sense to trust God, I still have a bit more work to do.
And that's really only a portion of the people who have seriously hurt me. Because of this scarred past, I sometimes find it hard to grow closer to people and actually trust them. Because all the people I have opened up to and completely let my guard down are the same people listed above. And for a long time, it was hard for me to grow closer to God and actually trust Him because of my past experiences.
But I feel like my "lesson" for the past year or so is learning that God is quite different from humans. And I mean, if you think about it, it sounds kinda stupid. "I'm not going to tell God everything cause I'm afraid He'll spill my secret to someone else" really?! (: God isn't like that. But still, as much as I've been working on that part of my life, and as much as it makes more sense to trust God, I still have a bit more work to do.
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