Erinnicole's Prayer: Falling Up's "Divinity"

This time it means something
Dreams will fall, love will spill

This seems to be something that I am constantly telling myself. "This time it will mean something". When it comes to relationships with people, this tends to be my mantra. I find that in my own journey to find myself, I sometimes lose others. Sometimes it is a good thing in the end, and sometimes it is not. But regardless of what I can see in the big after picture, at the time it hurts a lot. So I tell myself in new relationships "This time it will mean something." I was thinking about the Eucharist last night and about this problem I have with having myself be loved by me and my peers at the same time. I was trying to think of one consistent friend that I've had throughout high school. And I could only come up with one. Jesus. He could see me through all of the changes I made in myself, trying desperately to figure out who I am. He knew the whole time that I am just supposed to be Erinnicole and listen to Him. Unlike my other friends, I truly know that this time it means something. Present tense. Dreams of the perfect relationship will undoubtedly fail me, but Jesus' love will never cease spilling over onto me.