Katie's Prayer: Sean McConnell's "Madly in Love With You"

Last night, the relationship I’ve been in for the past 6 months ended. This morning, this song was the first thing I heard. A song I have memorized and could sing along without even thinking. A song I’ve heard over 100 times. But a song that, this morning, I felt like I was hearing for the first time because suddenly, the lyrics had new meaning.

I have this theory that God speaks to everyone is a special way. How God talks to me is not necessarily how God speaks to you. You just have to find how God speaks to you, and once you do, you can’t stop hearing His voice. Foe of the ways God speaks to me is through song - one of the reasons I was so excited to start this blogging project. Through this song, and literally every song I’ve heard since, God keeps telling me that this was what was supposed to happen. This is the best thing. Even if it hurts. Even if I don’t fully understand. Even if I’m not getting the answer my question why.

The other message God is sending me, I talked a little about in my last post, ‘don’t give up.’ Don’t give up on Him. I know that God has bigger plans than what I can see at the moment. I just have to trust that. And for the moment, just allow myself to feel God’s love. And eventually, I’ll see the fruit behind it all. Eventually, I might get the answer to my question why. And even if I don’t ever understand, I hope that I can at least fully realize how much God loves me.

I see you down there everyday
Trying to find a different way
To build some kind of ladder to the sky
Trying to find some way to see
Secrets of eternity, and they don’t come all at once
And you don’t know why 

How do you think it feels to hear you screaming out my name
While all the while I’m trying to open up your heart
I see you when you cry yourself to sleep
It’s tearing me apart 

I know you wish you could see me
That’s the way it has to be
Someday you’ll understand,
don’t you lose your faith in me 

I know you wish you could hear me
Sometimes it’s so hard to do
But every morning sunrise says
I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you 

I know that you’re waiting for,
A chance to come in from the war
If only a moment, if only a day
A place where you feel safe and warm
A sanctuary from the storm
Until all of these questions fade away 

But I cannot count on all the signs
You’ve passed away as mere coincidence
And I’m running out of ways to break through
Like a lonely lover, Waiting by the ocean
I’ll never give up on you 

I know you wish you could see me
That’s the way it has to be
Someday you will understand,
Don’t you lose your faith in me 

I know you wish you could hear me
Sometimes it’s so hard to do
But every morning sunrise it says
I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you
Yes I’m madly in love with you