Katie's prayer: David Crowder Band's "B Quiet Inerlude"

I've had some nasty bug for quite a while now. It just doesn't seem to want to go away. So yesterday, I finally gave in to my mom's pleas and went to the doctor. Apparently my cold is gone, but it forgot to take the sore throat with it. The doc told me to get better, I needed to rest, drink lots of fluid, take some ibuprofen, don't talk and definitely don't sing. Didn't seem too hard. Then I tried following them and realized the last two were super hard!
Last night, I needed to talk. Well, "needed" to talk. I just felt the need to say something, probably because I knew I couldn't say anything.
Today was difficult working when I could only converse through paper and pen or crude sign language and facial expressions. It was hard for me, and I'm sure it was hard for the people I was working with. Trying to get dinner at subway was interesting.
The most difficult part of today, though, was when I went to xlt. Hard to see people that I haven't really seen since November (since I missed the last xlt) and not easily talk to them. Got even harder when the event started and they played a bunch of songs I love. I'm a singer, it's hard for me to not sing along. But what's even worse, I'm not sure I know how to worship without singing along. I tried just singing along in my head. But when I do that, it's easy for my thoughts to wander. The way I focus my thoughts is by singing out loud. And I couldn't do that today.
But by the end of the night, as odd as it might sound, I was thankful for all this. Lost in my thoughts is where I needed to be tonight, not singing along to the songs. My silence today, though annoying at times, helped my patience grow, and helped me to think before "speaking," something people need to do much more often. It helped my listening skills to grow. I always thought I was pretty good at listening and thinking before speaking, but apparently there's always room to grow.
By the end of Adoration, I felt closer to Him. And really, isn't that was Adoration is all about? So while silence sucks sometimes, it can be good.