Even when I fail You
I know You love me
I feel like I fall on this excuse too often. Like tonight, I went to an event. It included praying a Rosary then celebrating Mass. During the Rosary, my mind kept wandering. I kept trying to get back on focus, but still, there was this little part of me that was saying: “Why? God’s still going to love me. No one else will know if I’m not fully focused on this. Besides, thinking about this thing or that thing is way more fun than actually praying the Rosary.” I’d then think of how stupid I was, make myself get focused again. Then my mind would start to wander again and I went through the whole process again. It’s like I use this “God still loves me” as a reason not to go further, not to go deeper. I get this attitude that I don’t need to try. And while it’s true that I don’t need to go further, deeper, try harder for God to love me. I should still want to go further, deeper, try harder.
Dear God, please help me get the desire to go beyond failure. Help me to no longer settle for “just good enough.” Help me to go further, deeper, and try harder to make my relationship with You the best it can be. Amen.
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