Katie's prayer: Kirk Franklin's "Now Behold the Lamb"

I honestly cannot pick just one lyric tonight. As I listened to the song, and later read the lyrics, so many different lines jumped out to me. Each time I heard the song, there was a new line that stood out. I might as well retype the entire song. The interesting thing, every line that stood out to me reminded me of my Adoration experience last night.

It was an interesting night to say the least. I didn’t go into the night having anything specific I wanted to talk to God about, I figured I’d let Him choose the topic. Shortly into Adoration, a topic came to me, maybe from God, maybe not. But I spent the rest of the time yelling at God. Complaining. Being impatient with His time table and demanding that things change. Accusing God of not caring. About me. About my life. About this certain situation. About anything really. I spent most of the time with tears rolling down my cheeks, nose running, the whole bit. I honestly can’t tell you one song done during Adoration cause I was too caught up with my conversation with God.

After Adoration was over, they did two more songs. Songs I actually paid attention to because I said everything there was to say, and well, God was “gone.” The lyrics of both songs gently told me that God loves me. God always loves me. And to just wait. Things will happen in time. I’ll find out God’s plan soon enough. Just wait. I know it’s hard, but just wait. It may sound strange, but I think yelling at God helped. I was able to get a bunch of things off my chest that were weighing me down, even when I wasn’t conscious of it. I was able to receive peace about the whole situation. And I do feel better today because of it. So thank you Jesus. Thank you for letting me get mad, and thank you for ignoring my anger and still showing me that You love me.