Megan's prayer: Falling Up's "Symmetry"

I typically take the “follow your heart” approach when it comes to making decisions. I let emotions, both my own and others, dictate my choices. Maybe this is good, maybe it’s bad. Sometimes what I think is right, what feels right to me, could be the wrong choice. I’m only human… I make mistakes.

But what if instead of listening to my own heart, and struggling with whether to follow that or my mind, I just followed God’s heart? I may not know what is always best for me or for others, but surely God would know. It’s scary to give up making my own decisions based on my own needs and trust God, but I want to try. I want to be moving to your heart this time.

Chris' prayer: Falling Up's "Symmetry"

Cause you know that your heart is so close to beating

Today, I had an stress echocardiogram. I've been having trouble catching my breath lately and my nurse practitioner wanted to "put me through the ringer," running all kinds of tests to find the problem as soon as they could. This was the last of the tests. It basically involves taking a video of my heart when I'm resting, making me exercise, and then taking another video right afterward.

And as I lay there before the exercise portion, I was watching my heart rate, as it sat in the 40s. I'm not sure if that's my resting heart rate, or if it was just depressed because I felt like I was going to faint. I couldn't help but remember the last time I'd seen a heart rate monitor with 40 on it. I snuck into room 206 in the ICU at St. Joseph's Hospital, and saw my dad lying there, sleeping. His heart rate was exactly 40. As I stood there fighting back the tears, I calculated in my head just how often 40 bpm is. My 40-something bpm might be good, but his definitely wasn't. His heart was dying.

I am so nervous to find out the results of all the tests. I want to find out that I'm mostly okay...that there is just a small thing wrong that can be easily fixed. I want to resume my normal life and be able to breathe. I just want to be normal.


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Erinnicole's Prayer: Falling Up's "Symmetry"

feel His voice

I was thinking today about how God communicates with me and how to explain it to others. I know with my whole heart that He speaks to me, but I cannot explain His voice. This song says it perfectly. His voice isn't something you hear, per say...it's something that you feel. It is the rush of peace that washes down on me when I am praying. It is the silence in my heart when I know He is working in my life. It is in the smiles and hugs of people that He gives me that truly care. I feel it in the breeze of each day and the darkness falling each night. It is wonderful to me that His voice is everywhere, the loudest of all things in my life...yet it isn't something I can hear and so easy to miss if I'm not "listening".

Marie's Prayer: Falling Up's "Symmetry"

When you complicate, you are left behind

I have a friend that is straight to the point. He hates when people aren't up front about things and hide their feelings. I find that when I say something, but mean something else, he doesn't catch on because he's so up front that he expects everyone to be that way. I like this because there's no hiding, no complication. When you complicate things, you leave the reality behind waiting to be uncovered. And it sometimes is never uncovered, left to rot in the hole that you buried it in. Then one day you realize that this hole is inside you and it's eating you up. Nothing is ever left behind when you really think about it. So when you choose to complicate things you might think you're leaving it behind, but you aren't. Everything you felt or did has some impact on your life no matter how small the situation seems, so don't complicate it. Be right to the point with what you feel, even if it's hard.

Catie's prayer: Falling Up's "Symmetry"

And we're moving to your heart this time
Release

It took me listening to the song a few times before I realized what was meant by "release". And after realizing what it means, I realized that it is the hardest part. To release our hearts to God. Whenever someone moves in on our hearts we have to make a choice. We have to decide whether we are going to let them in, let them know who we really are, be vulnerable with them, etc. Whether we recognize it or not, we do that with every single person we meet. God wants us to release our hearts to him. Not so he can play with it or break it, but so that he can hold it and care for it because he cares for us. Even when we are amists the storms of our life God is there, wanting to take our burdens from us, wanting us to release our hearts to him. All we have to do is be willing to release it.