Megan's prayer: Third Day's "I've Always Loved You"

I don't know how to explain it

The first line of the song pretty much explains my day. I really don't know how to explain it. I was filled with so many different emotions. At points, I was terrified, yet calm. Then I was angry, yet laughing. The day really just didn't make sense.

At one point of the day I was asked a question to which I didn't know how to respond. Even if I had been given days to formulate an answer, it would not have capture how I was truly feeling. Instead of making up something, I went with "I don't know how to explain it." While the typical response to that answer is something along the lines of "try" or "think harder" or some smart remark, my honest answer was met with a "perfect answer". My honestly, my inability to put feelings into words was okay. I didn't need to meet any expectations - just being me was the "perfect answer".

I think I need to start being more myself with God. When I come to Him in prayer, I think a lot of the times I am saying what I *think* a prayer should consist of, even if it isn't what my heart is saying. Although God knows what is truly deep down in me, it would be smart if I could begin to admit it myself.