Megan's prayer: Jars of Clay's "No One Loves Me Like You"

Honestly, it's been a rough weekend for me. Even as I sit here, praying, I'm having a hard time. For the past few days, I have felt (for lack of a better word) disposable. Unnecessary. Easily replaced. Like Woody from Toy Story.

Obviously, I don't like this feeling. I've tried being positive about it, but it isn't going too well. I don't even know who to talk to.

The one thing that has helped me tonight is a story from the Bible that randomly popped into my head driving home from work. It's the story of the shepherd who loses a sheep. Instead of just cutting his loses, he leaves his flock to go in search of the lost sheep. To him, it is not okay to only have 99% of his sheep. That one sheep is irreplaceable. That one lost sheep is important enough for the shepherd to go looking for.

I hope hope hope that God really is like that shepherd. I don't want him to just give up on that one lost sheep and rejoice about the other 99% that he still has. I want to be, like that sheep, wanted. I want to be needed, irreplaceable.

I don't think I have anything to worry about. Tonight's song reminded me that "no one loves me like you, no one loves me the way you do." Even if everyone else abandons me and just stays with the rest of the flock, I know God won't. I know his love is so intense and powerful, and that he won't just leave me wandering alone for long.

I really hope he finds me tonight.