Megan's prayer: Jars of Clay's "Crazy Times"

I'm a big fan of keeping track of my "accomplishments" in life. Whether it is how many days in a row I have showered, or how many Core team meetings in a row I have attended, or how many days have I gone without biting my fingernails, I find joy in counting up these days and saying to myself "Wow! Good job!"

But all of these streaks eventually come to an end, and require me to start back over at the beginning. I'm not a big fan of starting over, it seems like I've failed cause I wasn't able to keep that streak alive.

One of the most important "accomplishments" that I'm tracking right now is my ability to remain positive about my schoolwork and relationship, focus on the good instead of bad, and not allow myself to be overwhelmed with stress. I was doing really well - had hit a streak of a few weeks - until today.

I went to bed last night frustrated with my lack of motivation, and that continued into today. During classes, I began to feel completely overwhelmed, and not sure how it was all going to get done before the semester is over. Even my relationships seemed to suffer today - I couldn't see the good, and instead focused on the bad.

I'm just left here, sitting in bed, exhausted, wondering what tomorrow will bring. My streak of three weeks came to an end, and I'm not handling that well.

Seems sometime ago you said
This wouldn't last
And now you sit here crying
Beside your bed.

I pray that tomorrow is better. I pray that the streak that starts tomorrow is unending.