Katie's prayer: Steven Curtis Chapman's "God is God"

I am not God. That statement may sound like a no-brainer, but sometimes, it's not so easy to realize. I get into this habit of planning out my entire life, telling God how my life is going to go, what's best for me, all that. I take what should be God's role in my life and make it my role.

When I do take the time to see what God has in store for me, I don't always look fully. I can only see a part of the picture He’s painting. I may look at some part, think I see a dog and just run with it. Ok God, you want this to be a dog, I got it! That's great, cause it's exactly what I wanted for my life too! After a while, though, I'll look back at that part and suddenly, the dog looks like a chicken. But it can't be a chicken, it has to be a dog, because that's what God was calling me towards a month ago, and that's what I want for my life! So I move on with this delusion that I think I know what God wants for me, but really it's not.

I'm at a point in my life right now where I think what I saw as a dog is now becoming a chicken. That scares me, and I don't like it. I desperately want it to be a dog. But like I said at the beginning of this post, I'm not God.

God is God and I am not
I can only see a part of the picture He’s painting
God is God and I am man
So I’ll never understand it all
For only God is God

pssst... I hope my dog-chicken thing didn't confuse you, they were metaphors, really. I don't really see a dog or a chicken in my immediate future. (: