Erinnicole's Prayer: Kutless' "Not What You See"

How could I ever think to be more
than the one who created me

While i don't ever actually say that i think i am placing myself above God, i often try to do things on my own. my attitude has always been that i can do everything on my own. despite some of my actions saying otherwise, like my timid side, i am actually very independent. i don't like being helped and i can't do group work. i would always rather work alone. Even when i was young; we continue to dub our home videos from my early childhood to dvd and as im watching i am realizing i have always been this way. on my second birthday tape, my grandpa tried to help me unwrap a gift i was having trouble with, and i yelled at him to stop.

But i understand, mostly through this song, it's very pompous of myself to think that i should be above God's help. i didn't really consider that this idea was even my take on things, but it seems like something i would do. when i am truly struggling with something, i try to "get back" at the world by getting through it all on my own so later i can say "thanks for not helping at all but that's okay, world, i didn't need it". i honestly dont know why i act that way, but i think sometimes God gets factored in. i know He will always listen but i just want to be able to say i did things all on my own. My prayer is that God, you may help me to be more willing to accept help, especially from you.