Erinnicole's Prayer: SONICFLOOd's "I Want to Know You (In the Secret)"

In the stillness You are there

Being still is really hard for me for a few reasons. First, and most obvious, i'm really busy. i have school stuff, college stuff, a really crazy work schedule, and then the social life i'd like to have, and the faith life i'm trying to have. So i'm always moving figuratively, even if it's just a list in my mind. Physically, it's very hard for me to be still when i am with people because i'm very aware of things, i always have been. I have to know what is going on around me or i go into a panic attack; like when i listen to music, it can't be that loud, and when i have headphones in i can only have it in one ear so i can still hear out of the other one. and its a struggle for me to close my eyes in groups of people, but i'm growing a lot in my ability to trust God and do that.

there is this song by David Kaufman called "Be Still, My Love". based off of a verse in the Bible that i don't actually know... but anyway, one time this song just started playing in my kitchen when i was home alone and i walked into the kitchen and the cd player was set on an alarm so that's why it was playing...i asked my family but no one had set an alarm. that week had been a stressful week so i took it as God telling me to calm down. then there was a night at steubenville this year stressing the same thing. last night while i prayed i was still for a very long time and it was an incredible prayer and i think God even talked to me. so i will continue to work on stillness.

be safe tonight everyone and have a fantastic new year's eve!