Megan's prayer: Big Daddy Weave's "Never Goin' Back"

These past few weeks have been a very challenging time for me. School became ridiculously busy, and I just wasn’t feeling like myself. Today I finally turned in my final paper of the semester, and was able to breathe a sigh of relief. I spent the remainder of the afternoon just relaxing in my apartment, and by the time I met up with my family for some dinner, I was giddy about the fact I was done. During dinner, both my parents and grandparents commented that the “happy Megan” was back.

I’m happy to be back, too. I really didn’t like myself these past few weeks. I didn’t treat myself right, and I didn’t treat others right. I’m so blessed to have people in my life who were able to put up with me, to see that it was only a phase, and who believed that the old Megan would be back soon.

I’m so happy it’s summer. I hope I can truly leave behind my former ways.

Jen's prayer: Big Daddy Weave's "Never Goin' Back"

This is like the theme song of my life this year. My new years resolution was all about not going back to my old lifestyle...moving on. And I've written about that on this blog before, so at first I thought there was nothing new to write about. But when I actually heard the song and not just read the lyrics, this is what stuck out to me:

And I won't think twice

Sometimes, to be honest, I think twice. Maybe not completely back to that old lifestyle or anything, but there are still some things I want to hold onto, ya know? Of course, that's wrong. I can't have any part of that old lifestyle, I can't think twice. I need to keep pressing onward and with God's help, I'll be able to do that.

Chris' prayer: Big Daddy Weave's "Never Goin' Back"

I spent many of my childhood hours playing video games. From Nintendo, to the Genesis, to the N64, to the XBox, the Wii, and now the Playstation 3, it is a past time that is anything but past. Although I don't play nearly as much as I used to, it still ranks up there as one of my favorite things to do.

I can remember playing single games for hours at a time, going through an entire tournament in a sports game or trying to beat a platformer in a single sitting. I remember great triumphs, like 36 inning game against my friend, Doug, or the spectacular run through the defense to win the game. I also remember throwing my controllers against the wall in frustration, after the opponent scored a goal that was just too impossible to believe or after plummeting to my death when I knew that I had made that jump. I remember hitting the Reset button often in those situations- I just needed a brand new start.

Mike Weaver reminds me that Jesus is the one hitting the Reset button now. He's the one who erases all of my sins and allows me to start over and begin anew, exactly as if nothing had happened. And unlike the Reset button on my game consoles, my God's forgiveness knows no limits. It is always open to me.


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Catie's prayer: Big Daddy Weave's "Never Goin' Back"

Your love healed my broken heart
And Your love bought me a brand new start
A brand new start

I'm trying really hard to start new. I'm trying to clean my hands of what I've done in the past so that I can focus on being better. But it's hard. It's hard not only to ask for forgiveness but also to forgive myself as well. Sometimes that is easier said than done though. Healing can hurt because healing means that you are recovering from a hurt. However, healing is so good and so incredibly worth the pain that it took to get there. Even if it takes a while.

Katie's prayer: Big Daddy Weave's "Never Goin' Back"

Today's song reminded me of a passage I just read in Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World by Joanna Weaver. This passage speaks about Judas. Judas was all about becoming more powerful and richer. He joined Jesus' crew because he believed it would help him gain what he wanted out of life. Even after all that time of following Jesus, he didn't change too much cause he betrayed him for 30 pieces of silver. Here's the one sentence that called out to me when I read it and was reminded of during today's song:

Imagine spending three years of your life with the Messiah, yet walking away more or less the same-or even worse than when you started.

Thankfully, I think I have been changed for the better. Sadly, I will still sin, because let's face it, I'm human. But there are some sins I've made that I will never make again. I have learned my lesson and I'm never going back!

I'm never goin' back
To that old place
Never goin' back
Since my past has been erased
Never goin' back
In His grace I will remain
Never goin' back
To my old ways