Megan's prayer: David Crowder Band's "Come Awake"

You are not the only one

While I feel like this song uses this line in a reassuring way, in a way that says, "Don't worry - others feel the way you do - you are not alone," I took it out of context, and in a completely different way.

You are not the only one

Sitting through 8-10 classes a week with the same 25 girls can get exhausting. What amazes me is the amount of complaining done by certain girls, when, in reality, we all have the EXACT same amount of work to do.

You are not the only one

Sometimes I just want to scream this at people. Why can't they see that we are all in the same boat? Why do they continue to complain when no one is going to sympathize with them because, guess what, we all have the same amount of homework?

And while this bothers me, I know that I am occasionally one of the girls asking "why am I the only one?" I get sucked into the pity party, looking for someone to sympathize with me.

Lord, I ask you to keep me focused these last 9 days of papers and projects. Help me to be confident in my abilities, and not to crumble under this pressure and think that I am the only one going through this.

Chris' prayer: David Crowder Band's "Come Awake"

I love David Crowder Band. Their music just has a way that speaks to me, no matter where I am on my spiritual journey. There is always a DCB song that I can relate to. This one is no exception. The thing that I love about this song is something I love about a few other DCB songs, and that is the way the song crescendos from a soft, quiet, relaxing melody to a note or a line that just grabs the listener and proclaims loudly the line.

In this song, we are told to be quiet and wait. Wait for that one voice which will say to us, "Rise." Once we hear that voice, through the crescendo of the song, we can see exactly what we will experience if we heed that call. Life will not be lived quietly or reservedly once we have heard his voice. Life will be experienced completely, totally, fulfillingly. And we will...

Shine

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Katie's prayer: David Crowder Band's "Come Awake"

Eleven days. (Technically 10 days, 18 hours, 35 minutes and 45 seconds) That is how long I have until graduation. And I am scared out of my mind! Last week I somehow had peace about the whole not knowing what's going to happen twelve days from now. For some reason, that peace left me this week, and thus left me scared out of my mind! I'm so afraid of what the future holds. Am I going to get a job? Where? Will I have to go apartment searching? Am I going to go back and live with my parents? So much to fear.
So often I feel alone in that fear. Being the dramatic person I am, I start thinking that I'm the only one that has no idea what's going to happen. ALL my friends have known what they wanted to do with their lives since birth, and I just figured out my vocation a month ago. ALL my friends have a million different jobs they could apply for and be happy, I have very few. ALL my friends have their entire lives figured out, and I know a little about even the next eleven days. But really, thoughts like that are stupid! They have got to be just as scared as me. None of them have been hired anywhere. They don't know where they'll be either. So then, I must not be alone in my fear.
But, I don't know for sure, because we don't talk much about the future around here. Sure, we're totally counting down to graduation (and have been since August) but past that, we don't talk.

You are not the only one
Who feels like the only one.

Maybe if we started talking, my stress level would go down, because I might just realize that I"m not the only one. And who knows, it might help their stress level too.

Catie's prayer: Kara's "Sunshine"

Forgive me, Lord, for I have sinned
and I've been places
I should never have been
and I'm tired of feeling guilty
all the timelost in a whirlwind
a thunderstorm raging deep within
and only You can save me
Lord, come and save me

This is the story of my life right now. I'm feeling guilty for a lot of things I have done in my past, and now I am forced to make decisions as to try and mend the wrongs I've done. But I'm scared. I'm scared of what the other person will think of me, I'm afraid of what might happen, I'm just scared. However, I know and have to remember that God is taking care of me. Even through the storms, even when I've done wrong, he still loves me. Today during mass the priest started talking about how much God loves us and my eyes welled up with tears. It never seizes to amaze me how much God loves me, how much he can look past all that I've done wrong and still love me. That great love surrounds each of us constantly. There is not a moment that goes by that we are not loved.

Jen's prayer: David Crowder Band's "Come Awake"

I love this song. It seems like years ago that my friend Tasha and I would carpool to college together and play this first thing in the morning for the obvious reason: Come awake. We were so tired and grouchy in the morning and this song always got us going on a more positive note. Good times. :)

Today, this song has helped me in a different way. There's a lot going on inside my mind right now and I feel like God and I are playing some major tug-of-war. I feel really confused. Ironically, I had this David Crowder album in my car's CD player already and I don't think that was a coincidence. After finding out this was today's song and then getting in my car and hearing it, I was pumped. It was good to hear these lyrics:

You are not the only one
Who feels like the only one
Night soon will be lifted friend
Just be quiet and wait for the voice

I cut out the last three words of that final line because the words above are the ones that I really need.
I'm not alone. My frustrations are things many have experienced. This "night" or heaviness on my heart will soon be lifted if I just quietly wait to hear God's voice on the matter.