Totally, Completely, Entirely
I love this so much. I am a perfectionist, no doubt about it. As such, everything has to be just so. I do not exactly see the world in black and white, per say, but I like to have things either one way or the other. I can see "gray" in situations, but here are examples of what I mean. When I drink water, the glass either has to be full or empty. If I am drinking it, I have to stay next to the faucet to fill it back up after I drink too much so that it will keep its constant level. I hate driving in dusk because I either need the road entirely dark or entirely light. I literally have problems seeing if it is not one or the other. And the strangest one is the color perrywinkle. Which I recently have found a distaste for because perrywinkle as I see it, isn't so much a color as an attempt at three different colors : pink, blue, and purple. I mean, props to those of you who love it, it just goes against my perfectionist ways.
In life, I feel so many uncertainties. I can't always tell who will be there for me and who won't, I don't always know how this evening or tomorrow morning will pan out. Things in this world are shaky and I feel like I almost never have something stable to hold onto because things are constantly changing. I have never thought of God in this way before. I know He is always there, that is common knowledge to me, but I've never considered that He could be my stability in an unstable world. I never really thought of God as a post for me to hold on to. To run to, sure, but to grab and keep hold of, not so much. But reading and listening to these lyrics, that makes complete sense. Not just a little sense or no sense at all, but complete and total sense to me that God should be the one constant in my life. God is who I can depend on always.
