There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye
Today we had a chastity talk at school, given by Mr. Jason Everett (probably spelled incorrectly...my apologies). It was incredible and I saw hearts change. A guy in my class, who I am relatively friends with was wearing a disrespectful shirt proclaiming profanity and when the talk was over, he approached the speaker and took it off and handed it to him. It was an intense hour that brought up an unbelievable amount of viewpoints for things I've never thought of. I made the choice to live chastity already when I was in 8th grade officially, but even when I was young I would look in the mirror and know that I was special and worth the world. Still, his talk hit me and reinforced that I'm making the right decision.
Before the talk, I doubted that it would have an extreme impact. No matter how good the delivery is, it is difficult to talk about God and His love, even in my school, and a lot of people close their minds and tend to shut down. So my thought was, the majority of us have made the choice we will make. Most likely, he will spark the desire for a new lifestyle in maybe a few people and if some kids already have that desire but don't know where to start, he can help keep their ball rolling. But that isn't what happened; people talked about it all day and I heart guys saying to their girlfriends "that really inspired me". It was awesome! At lunch, I talked to my friend about my previous thoughts on how much of a difference a stranger, no matter how cool, could truly make but that I was wrong. And he said, 'erin...you give chastity talks...how can you not think that they make a difference?'
well, that sort of got me thinking and we actually were having this conversation as this song was playing in the background for the first time when I clicked it. And it occurs to me, that I don't think I can make a huge difference. I can offer good points and give a few laughs (in life, not just in talks), but since the lifestyle choice is ultimately other people's, how much of a difference can I really make in the world? It makes complete sense to me. Perhaps it is the stubborn attitude of the teenage years [I wouldn't know yet, I haven't muddled through them all], but to me, whenever I give advice, no matter how badly the person wants it, they almost never listen.
I stopped texting my friend and really focused on the song and the other words, while beautiful, faded away, just leaving "There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye". It hit me, much like the talk today but more and in a different way. Even if life is truly just a blink of God's eye, virtually no time at all...He still placed me here. And if He took the time to create me as I am, and as He wants me, there must be a reason I am here. There has to be! So even if it isn't a big difference, I am affecting the world around me...or there wouldn't be a world around me. I believe everything happens for a reason and so it only makes sense that there is a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye.
