Erinnicole's Prayer: Jars of Clay's "Crazy Love"

And then pretend that you can't hear
These teardrops comin' down

being vulnerable is really hard for me because when people care a lot for me i feel that i dont deserve it. so more often than not, ill put on a happy face no matter what. i know that it is a bad thing and im trying to stop and im actually doing better. but i want to be able to have the strength and ability to not even try to hide my tears from God because i accept that He can fix them. My apologies for the short post, but it's my sister's birthday so i must clean the house! :)

im praying for you all!!! :)

Marie's Prayer: Jars of Clay's "Crazy Love"

Refusing to unwind

Sometimes I don't realize how tightly wound I am. I pull the string of stress and hurt all around me until I can't move. I refuse to untangle myself and let loose. Today I want God to help me let go of that string and unwind. Let myself be open to actually living life, not just going through the motions.

Chris' prayer: Jars of Clay's "Crazy Love"

Tonight I'm gonna break away, just you wait and see

Ah, how I love those words: "just you wait and see." Always preceded or followed by some kind of wild promise against all expectations, one which no one around even begins to believe, it is made anyway. It is no different in this song. Dan Haseltine sings about getting over a love lost, but it could be about anything and everything.

And, for me, it has been.

From saying that I am going to read the entire Bible, cover to cover, to running a certain number of miles in a year, to overcoming the sins I struggle with, I cannot count the number of times I've said, either to myself or to others, "Just you wait and see..."

And yet, I fail. Over and over and over again, I fail.

The good news, however, comes a little bit later in the song:

It happens all the time.

Here, Haseltine is singing about letting his heart get wrapped up in his "crazy love." Again and again, his heart is open to love. Despite the pain that comes. Despite the suffering. Despite the failing.

I guess it could be seen as a bad thing, to keep trusting that love will work out when it has shown no sign in the past. I guess letting "it happen all the time" could be a bad thing and not at all healthy. But, in one way, it gives me hope. Despite the failure that I've endured with my just-you-wait-and-sees, I have hope that, by the grace of God, by the love of God, all things can be conquered.

It can happen. It will happen. Just you wait and see.


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Megan's prayer: Jars of Clay's "Crazy Love"

Today’s song holds the words I wish I could say:

"Tonight I’m going to break away."

As wonderful as my life is, there are certain things that I want to just break away from. I want to break away from the stress that I constantly experience. I want to break away from the demands and the expectations that I have been feeling. But most of all, I want to break away from the monotony of life and just be consumed in God’s love and have no other cares in the world.

I want to live the words “Tonight I’m going to break away” but instead I’ll end up saying “Tonight I wish I could break away.”

There is some fear inside of me that doesn’t allow me to take this leap of faith. I’m so worried that if I do jump, no one will be there to catch me. I want to be able to break away, but I’m too scared that I will just screw up or make a mistake. I want to give myself fully to God, but something inside of me holds me back.

Hopefully someday I can find the courage to break away.