Chris' prayer: Steven Curtis Chapman's "Still Listening"

I am still listening...

When I read that this was going to be the song for the day, and being unfamiliar with the song, I thought that it was going to be about me still listening to God and not, as it turned out, that God is still listening to me. So, as I scrolled through my iPod looking for the song, I was thinking about the ways in which I am still listening for God's voice.

A few weeks ago, I went on a retreat called "Christ Renews His Parish" or CRHP (pronounced "chirp" even though that makes no sense). It was a great retreat that I would recommend to anyone. However, the retreat wasn't actually the point at all. I am just at the beginning of the point- which is a formation team with my CRHP brothers. Together, through the course of the year, we will grow together spiritually while planning to lead the next retreat, about a year from now.

There are many roles that I could take on during this process and tonight, and really the last couple of weeks, was about figuring out what role I am being called to fill. It is something that has been weighing on my mind heavily as I contemplate how much time I have to devote to the process and where I feel I'm being lead. We did manage to get some of the roles defined tonight, but as of now, my role is still up in the air. I am still listening for God to share with me where He would like me.

God is still listening...

When I actually did listen to the song, I discovered what I already wrote above- that this song is about God listening to us. For some reason, I got to thinking about how often I, and other Christians just like me, need to apologize to God for something we've done or should have done but didn't. It would seem like He would get tired of hearing from us about how often we screw up, about how often we abandon Him and choose to follow other things, like money, or sex, or a career. If someone keeps making the same mistakes over and over and keeps apologizing to me about it, all the while changing none of their actions, I would think that I would get tired of it.

But I have this hunch that God doesn't. That He can't wait to talk to us, to hear whatever we have to say to Him. He is so happy to hear our voice, to know that we are coming to Him at that moment, that He runs to meet us. There isn't anything we could do to make Him stop listening to us, to make Him turn his back on us.


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