Katie's prayer: Shane and Shane's "Yearn"

Before tonight, this song had more than 100 play counts. It used to be a big favorite, but now I'm finding so many problems with this song! But I don't think I honestly thought about the lyrics until tonight. Some of them make no sense to me whatsoever! For some, until I read the lyrics I thought they were singing something else (bringing grain, what does that mean?) But I think out of all the problems with this song, the one that I dislike the most is just one word: "wanna" (or I guess if you look at the lyrics, it'd be two words: "want to").

Yearn = to feel a powerful desire for something. So what they are saying is, Lord I WANT to have a powerful desire for you. They couldn't sing "Lord I yearn for You," no, it had to be "Lord I want to yearn for You." So the problem now becomes, when I sing this, I'm singing of my desire for a closer relationship with God, but also singing about my lack of commitment in that desire, because I want to yearn and not already yearning. (does that make sense? Even if it doesn't, that's ok cause it makes sense in my head)

As I was thinking about this, I realized there are many places in my life that I have the desire to do something, but lack the commitment to do so. Every time I think about this, I can come up with another "I wanna...." that still hasn't happened. I wanna take the time to make this playlist, I wanna make it to the gym more often, I wanna make it to Adoration on a regular basis, I wanna start that counted cross-stitch project, I wanna do all sorts of stuff but it never happens. And not cause I don't have the time, cause I do. And sadly, some of my I wanna's have been on the "I wanna" list for years and haven't ever been touched. Until now! (: I know it's kinda late in the game for a new year's resolution. But I'm going to knock 12 I wanna's off my list. That's right, by working on one a month. This month I think I'll tackle making that playlist. You know, the one I talked about here.

Lord, I wanna yearn for You.