Katie's prayer: Kirk Franklin's "Declaration (This is It)"

I've learned that in Kansas City, there are 2 types of youth ministers. Type 1, amazing people with amazing faith lives who are amazing at their job. Teens love them, their programs are interesting, their faith just radiates from them, they are always willing to help anyone in any way they can. Type 2, people who probably shouldn't be in their current positions. At one time, they may have been type 1 yms, but now, not so much. They constantly complain, mostly about things where they don't know the whole story, so of course they make up stuff. They very much dislike all the type 1 yms, for reasons unknown.

I'm going to let you guess which type I got to spend a chunk of my day with. Before going to the meeting this morning, I told myself I wouldn't let them get to me today. I failed. From the groans I heard on our trip to the chapel to do morning prayer to the refusal of joining in on the Hail Mary for closing prayer, I was upset. I even almost broke out in an angry rant at the one ym. Once the meeting was over, I immediately left, and put this song on repeat in my car, blasting the music. Singing along at the top of my lungs, dancing the whole bit. Anything to get out my feelings so that today would not end up being like a normal day after seeing these people.

I keep trying to tell myself it'll get better. But the fact of the matter is, these type 2's have been like this for a long time. They have also been in their positions for a long time. And despite the fact of them needing to do something else, they won't be leaving for a long time. And I'm going to have to work with them a lot. Maybe one day their negativity won't get to me as much as it does now. I wonder why God puts people like this in my life. People who leave me drained, spiritually and emotionally. I wonder what these "big plans" are as well...

I look back now, I look at how you tried to break me

Take my life, my peace of mind, and drive me crazy

My self esteem, my dreams, my destiny

So God allowed it cause He knew He had big plans for me.