to find my place in this world
The other night, I had dinner with my cousin, his wife, and their 5 year old daughter. During dinner, I was asked a few questions that I've been asked many, MANY times. And every time, I answer the same way. After last night though, I began to wonder if how I was answering was not how I should be answering.
The questions were basically: Are you going to be in Kansas City forever? Are you going to go back to school? Do you ever plan on going back? Every time I'm faced with these questions, I get the feeling they are really asking if I plan on being a youth minister forever. And really trying to imply that what I'm doing isn't a real job, and asking when I'm going to go back to school so I can get a "real job."
My answers are basically: I don't know. I just know I'm done with school right now. I'm pretty sick of it at the moment. I need a break. We'll see what the future holds. Basically telling them I'm still trying to find out what I want to do.
But after telling my family that the other night, I realized that wasn't true. I feel like I've found my place in this world. I love doing youth ministry. In fact, I'd be completely happy if I never went back to school and I stayed with Holy Trinity and Twelve Apostles forever. (Who knows if that's what's really going to happen. God is a funny guy, He can do whatever He wants with me.) My answers are not matching up with my true feelings. As much as it will hurt the people asking the questions, I should really be telling them the truth... I honestly don't know what the future holds, but at the moment, I have no plans on going back to school, and if I do, it will be to get a degree related to youth ministry, because that's my job, and that's what I love.
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